thanks anonymous!!

haha, at 1:52 when Benji was like "Natalie!" Dony was like "NATALIE FOTOPOLOUS!" teeheehee.


LMAO at :45. ha. wth. XD


:32.

=D haha. and when Benji started mouthing the lyrics. =] yay.

-Tayzie :P

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIDGEYYYY or B-RIGDE or BRIDGET or BEE or SISTAH!

Now, on with your birthday spam!!



aww! cute little hamster thingy!


A heart with legs! What could be better? ^^



<3

-Taylor :P

FCUK YOU AMERICA

*load of fcuking greedy, capatilistic, ill-educated, lazy-ass, racist, homophobic, warring, idiot, BASTARDS*

UM, YEAH, SO I'M LISTENING TO EVERY EMO SONG I HAVE RIGHT NOW.

*sob*

No Peace, No Love!

~ Moose Is DEAD Inside ~

EDIT: UGH GHAFRUGGINBUFFLEHOUSERSCHNIZZLESHITFACEDBASTARDHOUNDOFHELL!!!

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~ Moose Is Progressively More And More DEAD Inside With Each Hour That Passes ~

....

How is it possible that Pasha is in the top 6 and Dom isn't?

*crawls into a hole*

GO HOME PASHA! >(

...Dominic. :'[

Top 8 Review

Okay, time to review... Blah. So yeah. I'm drained, so I won't write much. Yeah...

Danra/Sanny Argentine Tango: Um, soooooo the sex. Gawd, that was friggen' amazing... The pretzel thing??? DAMN GIRL! And the prevideo was hilaaaaaaaaarious.

Domren/Lauric Krump: Yeah, it didn't do much for me. It just wasn't as hard hitting as I picture Krump being. And, I'm sorry, but Nigel commending Lauren for falling just didn't feel right to me... I kind of agree, in that I think it was a good move on her part to do that roll thing back off the floor instead of just plain falling... But it made me think back to when Allison dropped her hat during Bye Bye Blackbird with Ryan, and she made it into part of the dance. Both are *sort of* along the same lines, but Lauren's involves an issue with the dancing, rather than the wardrobe (Which really can't be blamed on Allison). And I know I'm getting ahead of myself ere, but then Allison dropping her hat made me think of Danny dropping his hat tonight, which he could have done more with. I know it was Hip Hop, not Broadwaym so it's harder to just pull a face and play it off, but something about what he did just made it even more obvious to me that it was unintentional. But it was good safety wise to get it off the stage. I dunno. Anywho, Krump tonight = mediocre for me.

Laceil/Neicey Latin Jazz: I have mixed feelings here. I actually agreed with everything that the judges said, but, even so, I was thinking, "Whoa, that's harsh..." And I really enjoyed the dance. The connection wasn't really there, but I still loved it. It made me think of Mia's "earthy" Jazz last season.

Pashra/Sabsha Broadway: I loved it. I thought they were great tonight. Now, I love Pasha, but the thing about him is that he does amazing partner work... He's always there for the girls, and he's strong in his dancing, but he kind of blends into the background sometimes because he's making the girls look SO good (Not that Sara nd Sabra can't do that for themselves, of course). Oh, and LMAO... Ally, Ora... I litterally started cackling when they did that move that was used in The Lioness Hunt. *wink wink*

Danra/Sanny Hip Hop: Okay, as soon as they walked on, I wanted to STRANGLE the wardrobe people... Um, WTF guys... Not okay to make ANYBODY living or dead wear that shit, especially not my favorite guy (Who's left) and girl... I agreed with everything Adam said to that effect... But, otherwise, I dunno what the schnizickel the jidges were talking about, cause I thought they were hot. They were totally on it 100%, and, frankly, the essence of what Nigel said to Sara was, "Come on, Sara, this is your style... How dare you not suck at it more to make your partner - who also kicked arse in this routine - look better, despite the fact that we keep stressing this as a SOLO competition now..." I was like, um, Nigel... Why does your bashing sound like it should be praise??

Domren/Lauric Rumba: Another 'meh' routine for me. I thought that Dom did infinitely better than last week, and God knows their costumes were preferable... But it really was a whole lot of posing, and not much dancing. Plus the song totally brought me back to last season and the Benjelle Montage/First Video Montage that I made to that song. AND, UGH, THAT KISS!!!!! *Smacks Dominic Non-Sexually* No kissing Lauren instead of Sabra, got it???

Laceil/Neicey Contemporary: *gets teary* Now, please don't kill me for this, but the dance, itself, didn't impress me that much. I thought they danced it amazingly, and the story behind it (Along with all the tears) was successfully DEPRESSING, but I was surprised at the judges' comments. I didn't, by any means, expect them to bash it... First of all, because it was well-executed, and secondly 'cause, um, how the heck could you say something bad about that when you know why Mia choreographed it??? I just don't see it as one of those routines that will be looked at as one of the greatest on the show. I thought it was really good, but the chorography just didn't serve it as one of those mindblowing routines I'm used to getting out of Mia.

Pashra/Sabsha Quickstep: I love it, seriously. There were little bits that obviously weren't perfect, but I thought they killed it. For me, they and Sara/Danny were the best of the night. Plus, Pasha looked like Jack Skellington... Which automatically makes it cool.


Moosey's Top Four (Of the night, but also overall): SARA, Sabra, Danny, Pasha
Moosey's Bottom Four: Lacey (Though I want her in my Top Four, too... She's, like, a hair behind Sabra), Neil, Dominic, Lauren
Send Home: Dominic (Or Neil) and Lauren

If Sara leaves, I will die.

End of story.

Peace and Love!

~ Moosey ~

WHAAA!

OMFG.

LAUREN.

DOMINIC.

KISSING.

*SPAZ*

:D

hgfjds. fhksdfsh. Lauric. Domiren. AH. They need a name.

and lmfao Mia. XD


"Sorry Cat"


=D


EDIT: MWHAH. I'm like the only person who 'awwed' at the kiss.

Okay...maybe what Ora said was right...but so what if they looked like they were eating each other's lips? [LMFAO] I thought it looked cute. ^_^

________________________________________
aaand.
Lacey and Neil's dance was really nice.

I loved the proud look Neil had on his face when Lacey waved.

That was beautiful. <3

-Taylor :P

Woody Something-Or-Other Hairspray

.....Who is this guy?? Haha, all those poor, poor people running away from him... Thanks Vee!



Taylor: *cough*Only 8 to go - Email me on MySpace to discuss?*cough*

i'm happeh.

mwhaha. Finally, I've found the Trivan...son interview! Someone on the boards had caps on this in their siggy but I didn't know what it was. But I found it! YAY! =D


"i'm happeh." =D leader of the pack. vroom. vroom. ...wth.


OHOH! But omg, this brings up interesting memories. Travis. Allison. Ivan. All in one room...sitting together....with Alli IN THE MIDDLE!!

Did anyone read that story by V? XD yeahhh. If you did you'll know what I meant by that. bwah.


-Taylor :P

Videos Galore!

Whew! Thanks to my YouTube Wh*rin' lovelies: Candice, Vee, and Ora!

Candice... You're Amazing!!! LMAO, Season Twoers in CANADA!!!



Haha, Vee... SYTYCD Two SHOES.



And Ora, Lovely, I will echo what I wrote in your thread as a response to these:

"QUOTE (orador @ Jul 31 2007, 05:56 PM)
these links are more specifically for Moose, but if you love Sara even a fraction of the amount she loves her then check em out:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IAvt134a7Fk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_vtDHGyplm4

Haha, NOBODY loves Sara as much as I do (Not only has Jes'Von come up to at least the level of last summer's Benjelle obsession, but my Sara lovin' has far surpassed it). Awww, Ora, you know your little druggy so well... Yay for videos. In the first one, especially (Since in was all Jes'Von, I believe), I was watching the whole time, like, "Ooh, I used 75% of those clips in my Jes'Vontage! Eee, I love you"









Peace and Love to All My Hos!

~ Moosey ~

*Ahem*

Okay, so I'm about to do a public apology rather like those of Mia and Nigel from last night (Though I find it quite shrimpy that we live in a world where they'd have to apologize for that, and where people choose to take offense just for the sake of taking offense - It's called free speech, you prats).

Anywho, I know I've been cursing a lot in these posts lately, since I tend to be rather highstrung when I decide to write anything, so I'm sorry. Partly because it caused this site to be blocked from someone's computer (LMAO, Sorry!!!), and partly because that's something I think you can be justly offended by. That's not to say that I, myself, would be offended were someone else to write this way, but I have several friends I need to watch my unruly mouth in front of, and I'm sure there are people who read this blog who would appreciate it if I do the same for you. Thus, from now on, I will attempt to restrict myself to the afore used replacement curses: Fuzz, Shrimp, and Quack.

And sorry once again for referring to them as prats in the first section of this post... If it helps, I brought myself down to that word from the one I was really gonna say. *hides*

Peace and Love!

~ Moosey ~

Screams

Okay, this is random, but I've spent the last 3 days going to sleep around 4, waking up around 6, and spending the entire fuzzin' day with 15 veeeeeeeeery trying 7 year olds... So I don't have it in me to type more.

I thought Jaimie would go home (More like prayed), but thought (Damn you, DialIdol) that Sara would be in the bottom too... So, when she was safe, I screamed "WHAT??????" and my sister and I (Who were lying on top of each other on the couch) both jumped up and cheered.

Okay, then, halfway through the show, my mom went to watch it in her room. We were watching it in HD on our main TV, so it comes a little slower... And Cat didn't even need to open the card for the guys, because, as soon as she held it up, we heard my mother's rather painfully loud scream of anguish.

Yeah, nothing else to say now.

~ Moosey ~

whoaa.

Kameron got eliminated?

I didn't see that coming...

This season has the worst eliminations yet. UGH. Why is Pasha still here!?!?!? >(


*hides a smile* Dom is safe. =DDD




but...I don't think Kameron should have left.




-Taylor :P


PS- CHOMG! MIKA! *spaz* I love him so much. And his amazing blue pants. *walks off singing Lollipop* YEAH LOVE IS GONNA GET YOU DOWNNN! <3

Hippo Birdy Two Ewes

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Yep

~ Moosey ~

Reviiiiiew Time

Okay, the polls just closed here *eats hair nervously* so here ya go...

First of all, I must send out a general "WTF, NIGEL???" There were so many moments tonight where I wanted to slap him *cough*Sara's movements are not small*cough*!! But, God, most of all... When he was talking about how Sabra and Lauren were the best largely because they looked hopeful... Um, excuse me, but the song is "Waiting For The World To Change," i.e. "Our World's F*cked Up, And There's Not A Whole Lot We Can Do About It!" Hopeful is good, but excuuuuuuuse me if not everybody's hopeful about the war. They should be able to express whatever emotion they find fitting without that being critiqued as part of the dance (Unless, of course, it goes entirely against the message of the song and choreography).

Jaimie: Ah, I don't really know what to say. I like her okay, but she's never been a favorite, and I can't really connect to her. She should probably be next to go.
SARA: Okay, guys, it's no secret that Sara's my obsession this year (Along with Chuy, of course, *le sigh*). So am I biased? Maybe. But she whooped ass tonight (As usual XD). And, as I've been talking about with Ally, my heart was pouring out to my girl when that wardrobe malfunction happened. I so wanted Jesús to dive on stage and fix it for her :).
Lacey: Yay, she was amazing, too :). She wasn't the top for me in the solo, but, let's face it, most of the girls were equally amazing. So it's really hard to judge for me.
Sabra: She and Sara... God, their solos were so amazing... I love her to death. She's definitely in my Top 6, and she and Lacey are duking it out for Top 4 (I'd be happy with either up there, and heartbroken with either sent home... It's really a win/win lose/lose situation...).
Lauren: I know some people wanna hit me for this (Lauren fans excluded, of course), but I think she's been doing really well these last couple weeks. She's still in my bottom two of the four, but I think she was great tonight *hides from Orally*.

DANNY: GOD HE'S AMAZING! I've always thought that, but now that the personality's coming out now, and he seems less arrogant (I never really though he was, but he kinda came across that way), I'm loving him more and more every week. If he's not in the Top 4, we need a new America.
Pasha: His solo wasn't as good for me, but I love him, and want him in my Top 4.
Neil: Sheesh, he's sure got those acrobatics. Normally, I'd criticize him over musicality in his solo, since he tends to go for the flare, and make it more gymnastics than dance, but, seeing as it was choreographed by Wade this time, they really worked in his favor.
Dominic: I love him, and I love Dombra... But I've always thought he's been overplayed a bit too much (And I'd rather have Hok *tear*). I think he should go in these next two weeks.
Kameron: I'm a Kamcey girl, too... And I think they've been angling their comments to try to get rid of him... But there's some truth there. Same for him as Dominic.

Laurasha/Lasha/Pauren/Pashren? Hip Hop: She was definitely stronger from me *lifts shield against olive pelting from Orally*, but he was amazing, too. I though it was great.
Kambra/Sabron Contemporary: Who doesn't love Sabra's hair? Sheesh, it's amazing. lol, Loved the dance, too. I could definitely see Sabra outshining him. She rocks my octopus socks.
DANCEY (Bwaha) Samba (Was it a samba? God, spending my week with a bunch of first graders is totally frying my mind...): Amazing. I actually agreed with the judges comments... And, gha, I loved it.
Jaiminic/Domie Viennese Waltz (It so can't be called a VFW): God... Sorry, it was like the Kamcey Hip Hop routine for me, except I was actually cringing MORE (If that's possible), because, not only did I hate the choreography, but there were issues with the dancing, too.
Sareil/Neilra Disco: When I heard my girl had disco, I screamed, but I immediately knew that, if anyone could make disco appealing to me, it would be her, and she didn't let me down. That was AMAZING (Plus, she's sexy as hell :P).

Well, there ya go. Off to write my emo oneshot!

~ Moosey ~

New Sara Banner

Sorry, guys, but she was just too damn hot in that dance for me not to Photoshop it...



Rawr, damn, I actually need to go to bed tonight...

Love!

~ Moosey ~

RAWR

Sorry, I'm in a 'mad at the world' sort of funk.

lol.

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*le sigh*

~ Moosey ~

benji blogith

I really like this blog. :P



human part 2. "change a growth"
Current mood: being me

this is probably my most important blog ive ever written...also its the most important anythingive ever written for that matter....be patient!


my theme to life right now is best described by a new song from a friend of mine.
it's call run to you...and no its not the whitney houstin one ;P



turn look, look out and see
do you see me?
cause i think i see you
i have been some other place
the wind that i chase it all
just leads back to you

or how i'm still, so still..
its so far and
still i've ran
i knew you
when i was young
but where am i now?
that i am a man

run to you
i will run i will run
i will move right on through
all these things that i have done
and you'll take me back
i dont know why
i wanna say i'll never do it again
but i cant, but i will try
[Run To You lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]


turn look look out and see
do you see me?
cause i see think i see you
i have been some other place
the wind that i chase it all it just leads back to you
oh how i miss, what you miss
but i will fall time and again
and i will say that im true to you
but i'm a cheat
i don't understand

so i'll run to you
i will run i will run
i will move right on through
all these things that i have done
and you'll take me back
i don't know why
i wanna say i'll never do it again
but i can't
i wanna i'll never do it again
but i can't
but i will try



"wow benji...you look different"
"im very disappointed in you" "you're changing"
"we used to really love you"
"hollywood, and the world have gotten to you"
"bring back the old benji"
"it's sad to see you're giving in"



.....try hearing that about 200 times a day, and you'd want to respond and or defend yourself. hehehe

what's funny is that now, I don't feel angry towards these comments. and for sure wont feel bad at all if people are concerned for my wellbeing both spiritually and mentally..not to mention emotionally. It has nearly been one year since I made it to the top ten(congrats all season 3ers btw) and if you look at me there...I had shorter, dark reddish hair and i was clean shaven. now, im the same weight, 1 inch taller and my voice is a tad deeper(i dont know how that happened), my hair is lighter, a lil' longer, and sometimes i wear glasses. I even sport at times some earings that are fake.
first the hair,
when i was on the show i never tried to deviate from what i looked like form the top 20's first show till the voting was over, hense black hair on the finale. normally b4 the show, i died my hair every imaginary way in every imaginary color. i always wanted people to rememeber me on the show so i never drastically changed my look. on tour i died my hair a record 32 times...it got so "chemically enriched" hehe I decided to shave it off. grew it out, and am currently brown/dirtyblonde mixed...kinda normal for me but fun. i've decided im gonna have something completely opposite of me when I film my first movie in august.
Also, if anyone could see how bad my face breaks out in hives when i shave, you wouldnt want to do that much too...infact i have a special buzzer that doesnt get too deep near my skin, which is why i am seldom fresh faced as many would say.
the diamond earings, are in fact fake. ive been trying to develope my character a bit.
I play a more pompass and ignorant, yet pretty boy/wold spirited version of myself...who i wouldn't ever want to be like, which gives me even more reason to not look like me since he also is a dancer...i dont want people confusing themselvs that I'm just playing myself in this movie...no matter what.
It's hard sometimes...

I deeply feel the need to be a good example...espepcially to male dancers, and members of my Faith. Those that know me for me truly could see me in drag and know who i was and wouldn't care....I understand that I should avoid the pressence of evil, so that i should be the upright example that many out me out to be.

I for one know that there is only one true example that one should follow...and that's my Savior, Jesus Christ. I know He lives, and that He died for me and for all of us. Whether you're Mormon or Catholic or Buddist, or Born Again(which is what im playing in the movie, but not necessarily the ideal good christian guy), or even athiest...it's what I believe and know to be true thru years of prayer, study, and especially from answers I've recieved from above.

I feel so bad sometimes when others accuse me of not being a good example. It's funny, because in a spiritual sense, I may not look like it, but I feel that I have had a new spiritual seed planted in me that took sometime to grow...especially after last years tour, I felt like I needed to step up a lot spiritually. I don't think I'll ever be the man i once was out in my misison that i served for my church in Oaxaca. It may be mostly for the fact that I spent every waking hour of the day, reading the scriptures for hours at end(not like the 15 minutes I normally do a day now that my schedual is so hectic...if that sometimes it's just reflecting off a verse! or that I was in the Lord's army if you will, all day long working for Him and His kingdom. I spend my day mostly focused on my art/passion/craft/work most of the time..just as all adults do...even the best ones.
I'm not married, I don't have kids, it's knowone's business who I'm dating if I am at all...so there are times when I share part of my busy self as well to a significant other.
I understand that no matter what I say, will never take away the fact that people look up to me...I guess there are worse people to look up to. I'm no saint, but I can sincerly say (judge me if you want) that I am a good person. I fear dissappointing God, my parents, my friends and loved ones and even myself. It's sad when I know personally I'm doing good and yet because of something aesthetically, I am judged or snared at, without someone asking if I okay, or if I needed help...they just immediatly jump on me and say they're disappointed. Seems kinda weird because if they really cared, wouldn't they want to offer a hand seeing that they assumed I'm going down a wrong path? I think that's a great point.
If my future son was to get a tattoo...would i yell at him an tell him were getting it removed first or would i, truly loving him would ask him if he's okay? if there's some problem going on in his life? I would hope that I would be the second guy. Those that judge me like the first seem to be the ones that claim to be the closest to God.

I was at church today sitting next to Bear (yes, I am very active in my faith). I kept my fake earings on...it was amazing to see how everybody was just happy to see me there and ask how I was (due in part because I nomrally attend other church meetings in various parts of the world...not the one my house is located near to) as opposed to saying something about two lil fake cubic zarconias by my lobes. it was awesome in fact. I was reading my scripture while we were taking the sacrament(other denominations call it communion) and I was reading in the New testament, Luke 22 to be precise. I normally read the second page of that chapter because of the two biggest messages it teaches. Especially the one about the great sacrifice Jesus was making for us...choosing "God's will and not His own"...not wanting to suffer.

The other story is what intrigued me today. The story/lesson that Jesus said to Peter and the rest of the disciples...he who is the greatest, shall serve unto everyone else. Those with great power come great responsability. I am aware of that. Unfortuanley I am not even close to being perfect...I don't even feel good at times to say I am a man of God. I know i can be doing more. I know I can look better. I know I can reflect what's inside of me more on to the outside. But one breakthrough personally that I have had is the fact that atleast I can honestly say now...in this moment, maybe not in the past but not yes, I am more beautiful in the inside than what is refected on the out. (hense the current profile pic entitled don't judge me). if you notice there were a few negative remarks..."im dissappointed"...well Im sorry. I truly am. I am not the kind of person to usully say that. But i will try harder everyone and make me reflect how i feel inside more on the out. Although I could be covered up in tattoos with steel gages in me with even different colors in my long spiked hair...I might just be the better man than someone who dresses like a humble preacher but is a hypocrit: quick to judge but not cast the junk from his eye first, nor wanting to help just critisize.

There was one email i got today about a concerned father. He wrote me and asked me if i could clear up my actions that seemed to be so "not the benji I voted for".
He wrote the letter very concerned for both me, his family and the faith we both share. He was nice and didnt pass any judgment, and even told me he had no right to do so. He just asked me if i could clarify. I did to the best of my abilities...expressing how really all people are seeing are aesthetics...nothin real and eternal from me...it's sad so many are so pretentious and materialistic. I show 5 inches above my knee wearing american flag swim trunks, and yet the olympic diver can prance around a lot less and nothing is said. I can be scolded for sporting earings in my pics, yet the people who said that had vulgar music playing on their myspace. I can gyrate to fast music and people think Im being gross...yet I haven't seen a rated "R" movie since i was 17 because I made a promise to God i wouldn't, because i wanted to be better.

I know live in a world where I am viewed as an outsider. I live in a world where I see a constant rated "R" movie being played...yet I can honestly say that I have still kept my faith, my dedication to prayer, my scipture study however small it may be, my desire to serve myfellow man now thru d.e.m.a.n.d., my desire to one day have a family by saving my earnings, living thriftly, investing in real estate. I still love my family...I have given up many jobs to be there in the audience every monday and thursday rooting for my sister. It gives me great satisfaction that i am there just as seh was with me. My parents i rarely see as well so its awesome to go out and eat twice a week with them...something that I would never get to do normally. I still develope my talents...someone said I look fried out and drugged up, maybe even drunk on sytycd when I choreographed for the west coast swing...maybe it was because I hadn't slept in three days and was jetlagged from doing shows with heidi in china? or that I train myself as well before i start teaching, I also assist tyce diorio along with donyelle in contemporary at times, plus teach group classes, plus choreography studio numbers, plus audtition, plus attend church no matter where Im at even if it meant gving up a 6,000 dollar paying show.
I have never tasted alcohol. Nor have i smoked, or tried any illegal drugs...and I never will Heaven forbid. I don't desire to. I like the fact that I'm as healthy as i can possibly be. There's a great satisfaction in knowing I'm trying to take care of my temple....I may not beperfect at that yet but Im still getting used to the new life I have been given since winning the show. I could easily take this myspace off. I could save myself from the embarrassing judgements and scolds, but i dont.
Ill probably keep taking them.
I am human
My name is benji.
I am sorry if I am not what you think i am.
The only difference between me one year ago and me now is the fact that I pray will full intention now...not to win a competition, but to survive this life...be in the world but not of it. Instead of training for a number I'm performing in hopes to win a prize, Im training to be the most knowledgable i can in Mulitple fields of dance and art. I take that seriously. Also I work a lot on perfecting others and helping them reach their dreams. Instead of living in an apartment provided by fox in a plush part of cali...I moved back into my old apartment, choosing to save my money, rather than pretend that i will be famous for the rest of my life and save so I can live like it later when the attention more than likely will fade away.
I read philosophy mags and photography one now to understand my head and emotions of others to be a better friend, boyfriend, teacher, artist, visionary instead of playing video games to ease the stress off of fierce competition.(althought they are fun to play at times still to this day).

That's just a little insight to me.
Im not saying im perfect but Im trying to be better...there is a list of many things i need to change. UNFORTUNATLEY my hair color and or earings and or a tattoo or weird clothes of sad looks or glasses or time online to comment someone back AREN'T
the most needful changed I know i need to make in mylife. If you have a car with a few dents in it...but the transmission is blown....would you rush to get it a paint job first?

Let that be food for thought...speaking of which I am really hungry right now...its 2:40 am and Im tired...
if you finished reading this then...WOW to you. I hope I didn't offend anyone for what I said, or for any of my actions. I don't apologize for my faith in od and will not deny Him...if you have a problem with that then you probably would've stopped reading this by now anyways. Know that I'm a work in progress and try and see me as I try and see others, though i dont do it nearly as much....to see me as my Creator sees me. Love one another. Help ourselves out. God Bless You All...

all my love,
Benjiman Daniel Schwimmer
born jan 18 1984
parents:
Laurie Ann Schwimmer (now Kauffman)
Harry "Buddy" Daniel Schwimmer
I was sunnyside up right before I took my first breath.
My mom and dad had to dance me around inside of her with their hands, twisting me in all ways to get me to come out proporly...
I had an E.T. head and a weird smirk in my baby picture. they said I looked like a little man...hense they named me BenjiMAN not Benjamin.
I was born in Newport Beach ca.
Raised there till I was 5.
Around that time my childhood enemy 14 years later turned out to be my best friend was born June 28th 1988...her name is Lacey Mae Schwimmer. She's the person I think I love more than anyone on this earth. Tears come out of my eyes thinking about all we've been thru together and the amazing experiences we've shared and how much love is possible to give and feel from another HUMAN being.
I started dancing swing a little here a little there at age 3 with another special someone by the name of Heidi. We have danced together for over 20 years now. We have accomplished more as a dance couple than most...ever. Which is in large part due to my beautiful parents, Laurie and Buddy. They have always been there for me. IN my lowest and highest times. They never styfled my creativity. they reared me to be a man of God.
I was made fun of at school horribly. Some stories i never even told my parents about of how vile and mean people were to me at school from ages 10-15 because I am not affriad to be unique. The're hatred towards me inspired me to reach my goals.
By 16 i finished all my high schooling to pursure dancing fulltime.
By 17 i won my first Adult pro US Title in West Coast Swing (www.benjiandheidi.com)
From ages 17 to 23 (excluding a 24 month semi retirement) I wouldn't lose a single competition in all major divisions, including one that was in search for america's favorite dancer.
I served an honrable mission for my church in 2003-2005 in oaxaca mexico. many dancers helped me raise enough money so i wouldn't have to bum much off my folks.
After returning from the best two years of my life, I decided to return the favor and start a charity in which I became indebt from buying the appropriate right to, and called it D.E.M.A.N.D. (www.benjischwimmer.org/demand)
A year later I won a new car, a contract i never took (see older blogs) and 100,000 dollars cash(of which a tenth was tithed and Uncle Sam took a hefty amount as well).
10 days later I co headlined a tour with 9 of some of the coolest people and extremely talented individuals who i have grown to love very much on a tour which as to date has been the fastest selling tour in us history in the second half of this decade.
I know choreograph for tv, movie, and groups/couples in both swing, jazz, contemporary, swazz jazz funk, etc. I act, I shoot photography professionally on the side, perform in all parts of the world, teach everywhere, continue my charity services now expanding globally. I sell my own line of instructional dance dvds. I have one of the most popular blogs on myspace...
and here i am...
sitting down in a dark room
writing all of you
chill
feeling expecially after writing the outline to my life realizing that whether I am accepted by anyone or not...I feel so blessed. I love my God and my Savior. I love my family, and I actually love my enemies...I have learned a lot of lessons from them. I need the fire against me so that i can make my ruff edges like unto a sword.
I am not hungry anymore...quite possibly that was going to be an emotional eating binge(one that seldom happens since I forget to eat all the time), that has now been satisfied. Thanks to you all. Remember I'm human..Im trying...Im getting better. I am growing in a positive direction.

Feet don't fail me now!!!

truly yous,

benji



-Taylor :P

doin' the bone dance

WHAH. I can't believe I missed this episode of HM! Thank God for youtube. :]

Jesús is in the one with the dark red and the yellow jacket thingamabob. lmao. I find it amusing that he's playing an 8th grader in middle school.

XD




-Taylor :P

:o

My sister and I were on a Mitchel Musso fansite looking at pictures...and then she clicked this one picture of Mitchel and some other peeps...and then she clicked back. But then I'm all "WAIT! THAT'S JESUS! REWIND!" (yes. I said rewind...even though we were on the computer 0.0) [I guess because he was on HM] so here's the pic. XD What are the odds of that? :]





I want a picture with Mitchel Musso. D=

-Taylor :P

best video eva

mwhaha. <3


pole dancing. :o ^^

-Taylor :P